I’ve taken all my meds, meditated, my crystals are under my pillow and to be honest I have had the best couple hours sleep of my life.

Wait

Hell NAH

That cannot be it for me tonight!

My son is sleeping people, he is sleeping that is one sorcery miracle right there! Yet here I am flipping through social media like my life depends on it. Honestly, that’s probably the problem. It’s a calming though, I like having a nose at pictures, watching viral videos and people walking into glass screen doors!

When anxiety crept up on me in the first place I never believed that it would have that much of an impact on everything I did. Yeh prevents a hell of a lot and some tasks that are tiny to some people are MOMUMENTAL to me. For example being able to sleep throughout the whole bloody night!! I’ve learnt to reign it in though I can’t lie.

For example I went to a job interview last week and intend to take it on all being well with childcare. Again completely normal to some but a nerve wracking, nail biting, body shaking concept to myself!

Although I have learnt with anxiety that pushing through it for me works wonders. I do my self talk, my meditation, my pros and cons and I get there. Somehow. Probably the clonazapam!

So I guess what I am trying to say is it’s totaly doable. We can beat anxiety. It’s hard exhausting work but we can do it. (Says she unable to get a decent nights sleep for years) it’s true though. More often than not the worse that can happen isn’t even that bad when we truly truly think about it.

Now I’m about to do something naughty to help me sleep kids.

Thanks for reading

A